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i took my time

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Published: May 26, 2013

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Literature Text

_{when i realised
what was happening

i waited
for an opening
so i could say my piece

so i could
try
too

nobody gave me a chance
nobody looked at me
nobody bothered about me enough to care what i had to say

i still waited

i waited for years

it was happening more often by then
more frequently

i still waited
i needed to chose the right
words

the ones to make them listen
even if they denied the validity
of the sentences strung together
by blood and pain and
loss

i tried to tell them
about when i felt alive
about when everything was okay

they didn't want to hear it

so i divulged when things werent okay
when i felt like dying, like deleting everything
from existence
deleting myself from existence

they didn't want to hear that, either
but it caught their attention

i finally got to say my piece

yet
i'm still waiting

i still scream
i still cry

i'm still waiting
for validity of my nightmares

i'm still waiting
for everything to be okay again

for me not to be falling
all the way down
this drain of despair
with that look

in his eyes
the tidal wave of
"why?"
engulfing us both}