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habits are harder to break than bones

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"i haven't run away for a while. i'd almost forgotten how nice the feeling is of punishing them for not caring, and walking back in to open arms and crying. it almost makes me want to run away, and never come back. almost.
but no coming back means no delicious 'yes-this-is-how-i-feel-constantly,-now-you-know' look to shove in their faces, no one-up on them, and, perhaps the most taunting of all, no recognition. so maybe i'm better just being a fly on the wall, rather than an active (willing?) hurting participant."
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"running is a force of habit. i stopped caring where i ran to, stopped remembering who i was running from or who i was running with, stopped having a destination, a long time ago. now, i just run. because it makes me feel alive, and its nothing that anyone can stop me from."
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"its like running away, only theres nowhere to go to, noone to run with, and really, if you're honest, you're only running because walking is too much effort"
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"it still hurts to look at him. to look at that. to hear that song, to smell that aftershave. after all this time, why does it still hurt? why do i have to go back through hell to be loved? why cant i just be who i am, who i want, what i want, and people love me anyway?"
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"maybe i should run away. maybe i should make them realise i'm here. or maybe i should just die."
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"maybe you love me. maybe you don't. i can't stand here and wait for you to decide; i have some jumping to do."
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"join the club. the club of depression. we have tissues, but no cake."
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"its like running. running for so long, so fast, that you forget what breathing is like"
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"you never know, maybe one day i'll be able to draw on that smile, and it won't be crooked. maybe it'll be better than yours. maybe, even, one day, it might even be real."
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unseenant's avatar
if you ever need to vent or someone to chat too you know where I am :hug:
aside from that good work