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Ruby Mystic
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Please keep your religion to yourself - I don't care for religion much anymore; Christianity let me down when I needed it the most. I won't enforce my opinions on you, so long as you do the same.

family, kittens, and dresses, oh my!

Journal Entry: Wed Apr 27, 2016, 9:08 AM
*takes deep breath* HI EVERYONEEEEEE! :wave:
so, we finally got wifi at home! :w00t: 
which means we'll be able to get through the *squints at screen* 11k messages we have.... :o
so. cant even remember when we last updated this page, it was so long ago! probably about two years ago, if not longer. :faint: 
 
a lot has happened in the past few years. as you can imagine, i've changed quite a lot. 
updates! things that have happened in the past two years that are fancy: 
:bulletred: my sister got married in august 2014, which was awesome. in november 2014, she gave birth to an adorable little girl, who lights up any room she's in with her radiant little smile and overall happy demeanour :heart: she's amazing and adorable and i love that kid so much it hurts. crazy to think she's now 17 months old! :faint:
:bulletpurple: moved into my own flat in august 2014, had a lot of help to set the place up. after nearly two years, its finally getting to the place where i want it to be :D 
:bulletyellow: last august, to celebrate being in my flat for a year, i adopted a beautiful calico cat, who i named Sakura. her name means beautiful or cherry blossom in Japanese, which suits her perfectly! i'll post a couple pics of her in a bit :) its also crazy to think that she's now 10 months old, because who said time could sneak up on me like that?! :o 
:bulletblack: i was in a relationship with one of my best friend's brothers' for a few months, which was awesome, because i've known him for going on 5 years. he pretty much knows everything and accepts everything. unfortunately, because i wouldn't have sex with him, we ended up breaking up a week ago. still good friends though. i think. i haven't actually seen him since we broke up :shrug: 
:bulletred: i've now got a collection of about 10 dresses, as my best friends encouraged me to be more confident and helped me a lot with my struggles so that i felt like i could. turns out, i really enjoy wearing pretty dresses :D :w00t: 
:bulletpurple: i've now got a better relationship with my brother, as i've done a lot of work on my issues and he's become more understanding due to going to uni and seeing that i have a lot of very good reasons to be the way that i am. we're at the point now where we can actually talk about our feelings with each other, which we've never been able to do before, so that's pretty cool. :w00t: 
:bulletyellow: i've been working a lot of my art, and my drawing skills have significantly improved :w00t: i can now draw people that actually look like people now, its awesome! :D currently working on a picture of Sakura, which is proving to be more difficult that i thought it would be!
:bulletblack: i got my first tattoo in february this year, to mark 18 months of not self harming :D i'll post a picture of it in a bit. got designs for a second tattoo, hoping to be able to get it for the 2 year mark in July. :w00t: 
:bulletred: i'm now on 20mg citalopram daily, which makes such a huge difference. like, i'm actually getting up and doing things on a morning now, instead of lying in bed all day. mind you, i've been in bed most of today, but that's because i've been super busy with family and friends for the past two weeks, and i've got a busy weekend ahead of me, so i'm allowed. rejuvenating my spoons and all that. i never knew that being on meds could make such a difference, but it really has. at least, for me. i know they don't work for everyone, which was why i was reluctant to try them at first. 
:bulletpurple: i've also created an etsy account, and bought a load of beads and thread. my plan is to get back into making bracelets and necklaces, and hopefully selling them on my etsy account, this summer. 
:bulletyellow: i'm going back to college in september, to do childcare. which is what i've wanted to do since i was, like, 3 years old - it's only taken me 20 years to actually do it xD 
:bulletblack: i'm actually happier in myself, and a lot more confident and less anxious now. i haven't had a panic attack in 2 months. i'm so proud of myself for that. i went through a patch of having them at least twice a week, so to have not had one for two months is a mega achievement. i'm much better with eating and going out now too. i leave the flat at least once a day for twenty minutes. even if i don't feel like it, i make myself do it, and usually end up feeling better afterwards. 
essentially, i'm a nicer person because i'm happier and i have an amazing support system now. 
i've still been writing, but not much in actual poem form. mainly just scribblings that don't make much sense. imma have to revisit them and see if i can make a few new poems for y'all to read :) 
so yeah. that's all from me, for now. 
love and hugs to all! :hug: :heart:
ta-ta for now, to quote tigger! :wave:


  • Listening to: the curse of curves - cute is what we aim for
  • Reading: consumed - abbie rushton
  • Watching: Sakura watch the outside world
  • Eating: melon fingers, nomnomnom
  • Drinking: water

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SanguineWinds Featured By Owner May 5, 2016   Photographer
Mmm I can really relate to what you say in your ID widget. It's almost scary coming across a person who echoes my own feelings towards it so clearly.
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ticktickboom24 Featured By Owner May 6, 2016
yeah, I getcha :)
our church turned their backs on my family, just when we could have really used their support. you live and learn I guess.

how are you? :D
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SanguineWinds Featured By Owner May 6, 2016   Photographer
Ah with me, it was that I had planned on becoming a missionary and everything, was in love with their god. But then when I began coming to the realization that I might be gay, it was if he suddenly stopped speaking to me and just left me alone to rip myself to pieces. This is why I am not one. c;

I am doing alright overall. Just very, very stressed. It is the end of a school semester for me, and these are always very hard.
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ticktickboom24 Featured By Owner May 6, 2016
yeah. well, my eldest sister was bisexual, so she was shunned, and when she was in a car crash (which killed my dad) and she ended up in a coma, the church told us that it was 'God's will' and 'she was a sinner, thus deserved it'. not the best thing to say to a grieving widow whose about to lose her firstborn.... :hmm:
I still read my Bible, sometimes, despite being a pansexual and demi romantic, and it doesn't seem to me that Jesus judged people like us - I mean, he married a prostitute, after all.

:hug: I'm sorry you're stressed, end of term is always very stressful and difficult. its the only part of college next year I'm not looking forward to!
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seek-and-hide Featured By Owner May 3, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Hello Ruby,

Thank you so much for your kind support.Emoticon: Bow 

Mayumi
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ticktickboom24 Featured By Owner May 3, 2016
my pleasure :D :hug:
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gorgonzola1 Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2016  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the favs
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ticktickboom24 Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2016
my pleasure :D :hug:
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LadyLincoln Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for collecting, sweetpea.

With love,
:heart:
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ticktickboom24 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2016
its always my pleasure :D
I've missed being on here!
how's everything with you? :heart:
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LadyLincoln Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Glad to see you returning, dear!

I am quite well, thank you. How have you been? :heart:
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ticktickboom24 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2016
Yeah, I always meant to come back when I got a steady WiFi network :D

I'm glad to hear that :hug:
I've been up and down. on an upswing atm though, as I get to spend the next three days with my sister and her family :D :heart:
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gorgonzola1 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2016  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the watch :)
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ticktickboom24 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2016
my pleasure :D 
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coolkidelise Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you for the watch! :hug:
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ticktickboom24 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2016
my pleasure :hug:
how're you doing? :D 
i'm so sorry its taken me like two years to reply to this! :faint: 
i moved house and lost internet access, but i'm back online now, so shall check out your gallery as soon as i can :D 
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TheDarkenedBride Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:D thank you very much for your support :iconllamatruckplz: 
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Intransient-Soul Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
RUBY!!!!!!!!!
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ticktickboom24 Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2013
HIIIIIIIIIIIIIII *glomps* :D
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Intransient-Soul Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
HIIIIIIIIIIII *huggles and nuzzles*
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ticktickboom24 Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2013
*smiles softly and nuzzles back*
hows life for you guys?
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LynseyRose95 Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2013  Student General Artist
You got tagged in my recent journal. Lav you <3
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PoetryOD Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2013
:heart: Thanks for the fave!
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ticktickboom24 Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2013
my pleasure :)
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daianaramona Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
thanks again:D
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